Very very personal!
To be honest, I never wanted to write this but for the past 5 to 6 days, I dont know why that I feel this push from within to express it somewhere such that there are no traits of it in my mind even though i follow it in my life. In short, I wanted my mind to be free from the thought than keep thinking about it every now and then which is almost like an irritation or a kind of botheration. But it is true that I am obsessed with the thought or idea and firmly believe it but I dont want to be reminded of it every now and then.
So what is the thought? or idea? This universe is not real or true or genuine. The people around you, the society around you, the world around you, the universe is just not real or true or genuine. Its almost like you see in the mirror that there exists a lot of things including you, fair enough to be believed that they do really exist. But what if you break the mirror, What if you destroy the mirror, nothing remains. So is the case with us or rather here i will take myself as an example. The mirror will try its best to make me convinced that whatever I see in the mirror is true or real which is not the case. Now, imagine the universe, when i look at the sky , so many things are visible, be it the stars, sun, moon and we know or have read there are many countless galaxies too giving their best shot to make me believe that all that i see or read or perceive is true or real.
But am this adamant guy who cares the least for what is happening around me and always keen to do things in a pattern which is rare for others to digest because there is a difference in our thought process. Why so? One of my friends Whatsapp status is “Moh Maya”. What is Maya ? Maya means illusion. Illusion is a false image or a mirage that projects in accordance to your thought process. So what is important, it is not the world or universe but it is you and to be specific, your thought process.
So, on one side, there is you and on the other side, there is the Universe. If your task is to achieve success in convincing yourself that the whole visible universe is fake. The task of universe would be to convince you that its not fake. Think of that scenario, when you are playing chess with the universe. You make a move establishing your viewpoint and then the next move by universe establishing its viewpoint. And it almost is like a cold war. If you ask me, for me it has been quite funny too because I have noted its pattern of steps to make me deceive. So whenever i have noticed even 1% of the pattern with the aim to make me fall prey to illusion, I have backed out or I have shown less interest to get any task accomplished which has the involvement of other people.
With my point of view, if am an ant, the universe is as vast as a blue whale. Am not even a lilliput, not even a granule of sand. So when my conflict is with the universe, the after effects are pretty dangerous too and I guess most of the times, the kind of trauma i experience, sometimes physical and sometimes mental is just unbearable but then I have learned to ignore them because i move to the same old theory that nothing is real, nothing is true, nothing is genuine, neither my body, neither my mind, neither my intellect. I do have a doubt whether I should have mentioned universe or i should have mentioned nature? In terms of nature, man has two options, either stay within the planes of nature or stay beyond the planes of nature. So when i try to dwell beyond the planes of nature, it is almost like me being a layman playing chess against Vishwanath Anand or Garry Kasparov.
I think I should use 2 more words that fall in the same streamline which is attachment and detachment. There used to be days when my idea about both the terms was about owning and disowning any vertical x or y, not anymore. Imagine you own a car and you are very possessive about it and just cant tolerate any bad happening towards it, now that is attachment. While detachment is, you own a car and you are ready to welcome any kind of happening or outcome towards it, be it good or bad.
Similarly, I am detached to this universe or rather in the path of detachment. I dont really care for any kind of outcomes. What has to come, will come. What has to go, will go.
Good bye!
